I'm taking my life back. maybe for the first time. I caught myself crying so hard tonight that my head began hurt...in a parked car... outside of a bar. It wasn't the parking lot's fault. Or the bar's fault. Or the liquor's fault. It is me.
Buck says, "to write with impunity." that lyric ran through my head as I cried...and bam! It occurred to me: I haven't written a single solitary sentence in my journal since I started nursing school. And let me tell you, reader, We've been on "red-alert" status since school started. I'm a basket case, doubting myself more than ever before. I wish I could say nursing school has brought the "best" out of me but, like most challenging things, it simply holds a mirror up to your face, and you see all the flaws, exacerbated...by like X100.
So tomorrow morning, before school and the doubts begin I will go get coffee and write it all out. All the"Red-Alert" bled out on the page.
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So that's it Bora Bora...just for a weekend, to refresh revive and rekindle the spirit, if we don;t come back it just means that our hearts belonged elsewhere. I hope you can relax a little this weekend with me, even if it is poolside with a book in hand, just some sort of relaxing to help pull you back together.
I love you Rosie.
Don't let your bad chemicals get the best of you.
no more trips to that bar or weird starbucks' anymore! seriously!
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