i am a student nurse at an urban hospital. today was incredibly intense and i didn't even give it a second thought. all the insecurity and fear and self critical thoughts melt away when i'm with a patient. it becomes about them and not me and all my hangups. i imagine it's how an actor feels during a play or a musician feels on stage or how a writer feels when he is writing...everything else goes away. and that is how i know this is what i'm supposed to be, it is one of the very few things that takes me out of myself